awake and i'm thinking "how often does one get a chance at happiness handed right to them?" of course, as usual, i have no idea what has brought on this question, simply that it is there and awaiting an answer, but i don't think i'm the one to answer it, and i don't know who is or who could even lead me in that direction or where to even start in the first place and i'm frustrated because i hate leaving questions dangling forever, but there's really nothing i can do except jot down these simple notes and hope to make some sense of things by morning.